If you know me you know my obsession with photography mainly film. 35mm film and polaroids are my absolute favorite. Something about the way the photos come out no so perfect compared to digital.. like you only get one chance, no going back and clicking the "delete" button. i like that. it's raw and real. … Continue reading Some polaroid flicks
all i'll ever be to men is an object i don't understand. i am more. so much more than just tits and a vagina. i am a human. a little girl. with feelings. i feel. i crave. i hurt. you don't own me. i am not your doll. not your toy. you don't get to … Continue reading He won. I lost.
I know it's stupid because we didn't know each other more than a few months I only saw you in person maybe a half a dozen times, for weeks there was so much anger between us, and the truth is we weren't ever truly a couple, but i miss it. I miss you. I keep … Continue reading I know
You confuse me mixed signals an understatement but i am okay for now because mixing signals like drinks makes my head all dizzy but in a fun bubbly kind of way like having had one sip too much champange being giggly and tipsy without knowing what you're actually feeling and what the intoxication is whispering … Continue reading Mixing signals like drinks
There's a new boy. Actually a few. I've been with a few boys to try to forget you, to try to numb this pain you're giving me. But somehow even with them on top of me and inside me.. I just can't help but think of you and why you weren't inside me. And why'd … Continue reading My first heartbreak ’14
I'm not very easy to love. I know that. I'm sorry. I have tried to change ...in hopes it'll be easier for somebody to love me. I know i'm not perfect and I know i'm a mess.. and a lot more work than your last was. But i'm worth it.. I promise. But i understand … Continue reading Not easy to love
Your first heartbreak will haunt you forever. For the following years to come. It will always follow, lingering behind in your memory. With each step you take it is right there behind you, secretly keeping you company. No matter how far you travel. Distance doesn't bother heartbreak. Your first lover... you'll never forget them. You'll … Continue reading Firsts
I'm so confused. I'm so muddled. I don't understand why. I really cannot figure it out. I am living the dream. Literally. I am where I always dreamed I'd be. But it doesn't feel right? I'm infuriated with myself for feeling this way. Why am I not appreciating this? Why am I not grateful? Well, … Continue reading So confused.
New York's a big city you never really feel alone in these streets But inside i feel so lonely. There's a difference between, being alone. and feeling lonely. I don't feel alone. It's impossible to. literally. when you walk the streets there's no way you could ever. But feeling lonely. that's a whole nother story
i love so strongly i feel it like i'm on drugs and it's hitting me extra hard like love for me is 10x stronger than the average yet i don't show it i don't know how to how to show someone i care about them even though they mean the world to me i just … Continue reading sorry I’m cold