disappearing is both dangerous and safe. i want to be seen and i don't want anyone to look at me. i'm hiding from everything and it is helping me and hurting me. i'm so confused!
i'm home sick and don't know where to go i don't know where home is maybe i'm just sick then home sick minus the home
lately i've been stuck in this funk. i'm not sure why, well actually i kinda do but it's a long story. i don't know how to get out of it though. i've been feeling quite lost in life. i feel as if i'm suppose to have it all together, yet i have no clue what … Continue reading The funk i’m stuck in
all i'll ever be to men is an object i don't understand. i am more. so much more than just tits and a vagina. i am a human. a little girl. with feelings. i feel. i crave. i hurt. you don't own me. i am not your doll. not your toy. you don't get to … Continue reading He won. I lost.
You confuse me mixed signals an understatement but i am okay for now because mixing signals like drinks makes my head all dizzy but in a fun bubbly kind of way like having had one sip too much champange being giggly and tipsy without knowing what you're actually feeling and what the intoxication is whispering … Continue reading Mixing signals like drinks
There's a new boy. Actually a few. I've been with a few boys to try to forget you, to try to numb this pain you're giving me. But somehow even with them on top of me and inside me.. I just can't help but think of you and why you weren't inside me. And why'd … Continue reading My first heartbreak ’14
I'm not very easy to love. I know that. I'm sorry. I have tried to change ...in hopes it'll be easier for somebody to love me. I know i'm not perfect and I know i'm a mess.. and a lot more work than your last was. But i'm worth it.. I promise. But i understand … Continue reading Not easy to love