So confused.

I’m so confused.
I’m so muddled.
I don’t understand why.
I really cannot figure it out.
I am living the dream.
Literally.
I am where I always dreamed I’d be.
But it doesn’t feel right?
I’m infuriated with myself for feeling this way.
Why am I not appreciating this?
Why am I not grateful?
Well, I am grateful, unbelievably.
But why do I still feel this sadness inside?
I’m fighting between happiness and sadness.
I’m happy.
But,
There’s sadness in me still.
And,
Sadness wants to play in New York.
Sadness is way too strong for happiness.
Happiness hasn’t had enough time to gain the strength needed.
While sadness has been preparing for years.
Waiting to strike the second any ounce of happiness appeared.

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